my heart is like a tidal wave

2010-12-24T14:56:00.000-08:00

I thought I won't use my blog to say anything that I wanna shout out but seems like I don't have a choice. Because I don't want my sis or bro to see it. I'm terribly upset. But there's nth I can do. I just wants her to be happy and let her know she doesn't deserve that. I love you! But is too bad that the one u saying to isn't me. I learn and grow this past years, saw many things. Seriously who the fuck really understand me? Who the fuck know my pain? Why am I always smiling? Cause I don't want any mother fucker to be upset or be unhappy becus of me. I feel like gng mia and just stay in a corner and think.

2010-09-03T11:06:00.000-07:00

If a person who knows herself she likes u. But she doesnt wants to admit it, what can u do to make her admit it and let her fall in love with u?

2010-07-16T01:41:00.000-07:00

Seeing both of my good friends brking up hurts. And i cant tell either of one wad to do, i wouldnt want to lose both of them. So i choose stand out and knows nth abt it. Seeing the one stucking there reminds of me, myself. and the feeling is like fuck! For one person u love and he/she doesnt love u and stuck there not moving on for 3 fucking years is not smth u wants to do. And im still counting down on how many more mths that i can let go the last relationship. LOL!

2010-06-26T01:49:00.001-07:00

After so long we contacted back each other. Happy yet unsure what to do, seems so close but yet so far. And how do i make a person to be sure and can feel safe tgt with me? My greatest wish is to make everyone around me to be happy and of course especially my loves one.

2010-05-19T10:21:00.001-07:00

Just realise people around tends to protect me more. Is it so that sometimes make me selfish or self-centre? Seriously am i able to protect the one that i love? Or am i giving them more trouble than helping them around? Question flying in my head, but there's no answer to it. Hope i can learn to be independent and be the one the they trust and wont disappoint their love to me.
Gangster face also can be kind hearted! :D

2010-05-16T11:37:00.000-07:00

HI ! Im back again ! Confinement is finally over which means i PASS my ippt! hahahhaa! Though isnt a very good timing for my 2.4 but still manage to pass it. hahaha..
But im still sad, because a girl that i like she got attach but still i will wish her all the best and hope we are still good friend. (:
dumb ! i really like u and think that i wasted my chances going after you. but silly is always here to share your happiness and saddness ok !?

2010-05-02T05:39:00.000-07:00

Once again, i feel myself as a trainee! Fucking shit~ Rather treasure my weekends now but than any of my close friends are free ?! Sigh.. Ord shit is making everyone busy and stuff. And im worried when i ord what should i do already. Though i always wanna ord earlier but than what is the good thing about ord?
Luck: down ( because kanna confine )
Love: down ( no fate to have one )
Money: half-fuck ( spend too much on drinking )
Mood: bad ( no one accompany a lonely confinee starts from tml )

2010-04-28T19:55:00.000-07:00

I realise that whenever im unhappy or upset i feels like blogging. But cfm isnt for people to pity me or whatever shit. Training is tough, but tough training make human tougher. But if given the body condition isnt well enough for the training than how? I got confine but the problem is it lies on me? i did all trainings and stuff but who believes? Is my reputation so bad or im not trustworthy enough for people to believe in me? PEKCEK AR!!!! NBCB !

2010-03-09T01:02:00.000-08:00

Quite sometime since i last post. Dont know why i have been very tired and lazy to post shit. Recently i found a dog and is a jack rusell (hopefully i nv spell wrong) hmmmm.. But sad thing is he run away again ! Sigh. Not feeling very happy this few days/week. Wondering what i should i do when i ORD. I know still got a year but than must start thinking liao. Must find a goal in life already !! jia you jia you! :D

2010-02-28T05:45:00.000-08:00

Fucking shag after a long day of duty! Thought can have some nice rest at home when after dismount from duty. But i got drag out to bugis and told to bai bai if not i will miss the last day to bai bai for my whole yr luck! So i better to play save and go and bai. Ended up stuck at bugis choosing which phone to buy and walk here and there! But i get to play with my friends daughter! KIDS!! Oh man! i like~~~ hahahhaaha... But than after which i found out my batt for her attention is draining out very fast. And......... got little naggy and ask to hurry up and bai bai than head str home to my bed! nice~~~~~~~~~~~ :)

2010-02-26T13:23:00.000-08:00

Another shag day! After drink need to book in liao! sigh...
But is worth accompany omk and to see a person i really want to see. Thx for helping me to stop people asking me to drink. Felt really sweet and seeing u throat pain i also worry for u. Dont drink so much my dear! But i think you will never come across to my blog and read it.
And for omk please think of yourself already! You know what i learn from my latest relationship ?
Care for your own before others. Even is your good friend! We always treat our friends first. But do they care? Think of it of our friendship, how fragile it is? i dont think they would care also. Even it is you and me. We have to think ahead already. We are not young anymore! :)

2010-02-26T03:40:00.000-08:00

Why do i feel so painful? I really miss you girl. Would you read my blog? If u happen to see it, i really want to tell u i still miss u. And why want to push me far away and destroy yourself.
Dont u think for yourself? Would see you tonight but i am afraid to see you. I am afraid to see you , to see you got hug by guys you dont like guys that are fuck up!

2010-02-25T07:30:00.001-08:00

This post is for omk! :)

Bro, hope u are feeling ok man! After i hear that i was SHOCK. But we can do nothing to change it! All the best for your studies and what you need is the energy you told me yesterday!
Sometimes we always know our mistakes but what we do is dont care and dont bother. But now im trying hard to get my temper right and be a LAO CHEE BYE again! muahhahaha...
Forget about it soon and be the omk i know. :)

2010-02-22T13:48:00.000-08:00

What's up with avoiding? If everything in life we avoid than who gonna face it for us? I once post " love = pain than why should we love."
But I got reminded by my primary school teacher that. We have been shower by love from people around us from young.
Without them we won't know what is love and life could be colourless. So people who say " I can't love like the past or I am afraid to love "
I conclude all that is bullshit. Everyone will had a fall in everywhere we go. We should pick it up and continue walking. Stucking in the same old hole
For what? Is nothing but STUPID! Right poeple?? :)

2010-02-21T10:36:00.000-08:00

Got something to add on. I don't like going clubs and pubs. Unless close friends invite me. But than why nowadays keep seeing me in club because I use it to numb myself during the 100 days period.
I aviod clubs that she will go but than is rather stupid. Because I have no couarge to face it! So people don't follow me ar!
I'm doing the loser way, a winner is always dare to face any shit they throw to him.

2010-02-21T10:30:00.000-08:00

Sorry people! I'm back to post again!
Weird that I didn't post my day how many till how many? Because I promise myself to wait for 100days which is till her birthday.
And yes 100 have past and I didn't manage to win her heart back and she with someone else.
A guy which I believe is better than me. :) hope all the best to u.
This CNY I don't feel happy at all! I don't know why. And someone I like ask me don't fall with her because she can't love like what she did last time?
Is it a BS or what? You yourself likes me but you don't dare to admit. Why?
I know that I had bad temper but is not like whole day I'm scolding ppl! Right guys?
Hais!!! I need a nice talk with someone and nice drink nice smoke and nice moive!

2010-01-01T21:21:00.000-08:00

Day65-88
Almost 100days le! And im gonna make my wish come true! Forget about everything and just be friends :) Well, can see tat i almost 1mth nv blog. For me to forget thing i really tried alot of things. And i had been clubbing and siam all the possible clubs u will be gng. Learn alot of things as well. And my wishes is coming true! MY GUCCI WALLET IS COMING! :D thx to terence and i got a discount on that wallet. Next is my French connection watch! *wink wink*

2009-12-07T22:22:00.000-08:00

Day 56-65
Been some time since i last update. Hmmm.. I celebrated my birthday which i didnt really plan well so ya, fuck up thing happen. But everything turn out ok after that. Didnt drink alot, i thou im gng to need people carry me home. LOL. Brought a blackberry phone. (: Now planning to get my gucci wallet! On the 11 of dec, gng to go buy one! Why? Because I LIKE~ lalalalalla~~~~
Lastly, THX FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAY WISHES AND PEOPLE THAT COME TO FIND ME THAT DAY! Because actually i am emo on my birthday! Really thx u guys again.

2009-11-28T20:58:00.000-08:00

Day53-55
Friday got fly kite by my secondary school friends. Got a gf change alot! Sigh.
Sat went out and eat with jian they all to celebrate his bdae. And catch a movie after that. I wanted to go that wavehouse! But than, is too difficult for me to travel alone and i will have hard time finding the place. Wo shi lu chi ! lol. So instead of clubbing i went to proster house and dota whole night.
And still dont know whats up for today! ):

2009-11-26T20:36:00.000-08:00

Day50-52
When clubbing on wed at butterfact. Hmmmmm. It is damn cramp but still enjoyable thou. haha. When crazy that night, keep talking cock and making fun of people. People that i know or dont. :D I like~~~ lalallalala~~~

2009-11-24T20:16:00.001-08:00

Day45-49
Whooooo... Think thru liao ! happy :) And i wont be a irritating person anymore! :D
Been doing duties. Super shag. Play mj till morning 5plus 6 than book in str. Oh man, is hell i tell you! It is super duper tiring. But i LIKE! hahahahhaa..

2009-11-20T19:46:00.000-08:00

Day42-44
Been thinking really hard what to do now. Hopefully things i am doing right now is going to be fine. Anyway, shawn bbq was a failure! hahahhaa!!!! He ask all his close friends to reach by 5.30pm but all ended up reaching like 7 plus 8pm ? Omfg..... And few of them still dua him never come. You people call yourself bestie but doing this to him ? You guys should look how disappointed his face was. But dont why we still can finish the food. Must be the person who bbq till very nice la! ( which is me :P ) lalalalala~~~

2009-11-18T07:59:00.001-08:00

Day41
Hope everything is fine for my uncle. He seems to have so kidney problem and staying at hospital now. Sigh. Life's like so fragile, treasure it. Well, guess i have to drink more water instead of beer and drinks. I wouldnt want myself to be a sick chicken in my later part of my life. And seeing something i guess im out of the game already. Daniel is out! Fuck off. How good is it huh ? hahaha.. Guess i have to force myself to stand again and SMILE! :D

2009-11-16T20:18:00.000-08:00

Day40
Whooooo... Just end a duty and i am feeling bored! Dream of you yesterday night. Like random. LOL. Tc of your own. imy.

2009-11-15T02:04:00.000-08:00

Day39
Still went PH yesterday. Hmmmm.. Not bad i suppose, just abit too many guys. Oh man, it really fucking pekcek when people pushing or when u see all the horny guys chiong to just 2-3 girls. Totally disgrace can! OMG! =.=
Well saw u ytd at PH, at least i manage to talk to you. (: give 6points for myself! haha..

2009-11-13T23:34:00.000-08:00

Day38
Came across this sentence " in youth we learn, in age we understand." Very meaningful to me by the way. Find it very true. NICE! hahahhaa... Anyway, should i go PH today ? But i just wanna do smth and not burn my weekend! ):

2009-11-12T00:45:00.000-08:00

Day32-37
Continous of 4days duties! SHAG ar..... Wanted to call you, text you. But i dont dare. At the 9th i text you. But got no reply from you. I know i maybe still tat irritating daniel. But for you i change quite alot. Nothing beats you. Just hope you are happy now. imy.

2009-11-07T14:32:00.000-08:00

Day31
Do duty halfway, and tries all my way to go PH. But yet, i disappoint myself. I really really cant keep my eyes off you. Everytime i wanted to talk to you but you went away. Knowing you got ps by your friends i really want to send you back and maybe have a nice chat when on the way back. My love for u haven change a little. Oh man!!!!! I LIKE ! LOLOLOLOLOL..

2009-11-05T23:15:00.000-08:00

Day29
Went clubbing with jev<3 , omk , nick , shawn and mayeh they all. Fun ! Im like half fuck drunk but i drink just a little. Oh man... I cant drink already! Liver on prostest i guess. LOL. Anyway, i think i did alot of wrong thing. Fuck it. Why want to reject your own feelings?
Day30
Did duty. No fun. Sleep for 1hr because of yesterday night. Fucking shag but worth it. Having hang over in camp. Thinking what should i do.

2009-11-04T04:09:00.000-08:00

Day26,27
Doing duty at camp! Boring.....
Day28
Just finish duty and still back till almost 5pm than book out. Nothing beats you in my heart.
imy still.

2009-11-01T01:14:00.000-07:00

Day25
Went halloween last night. First time i enjoy myself in the club! haha. Anyway, maybe is the mask that helps. LOL. Cause cant see my face ma! Anyway, know more people is really fun. And my daring shawn went up to a table and dance with a hot chick! whooooo.. His god damn balls is HUGE man!!! imy........

2009-10-31T05:07:00.000-07:00

Day23
Doing duty. Recieve a call from you. Brighten my day by a lot. (:
Day24
Halloween today. But got no idea what to do. IMY

2009-10-29T05:00:00.001-07:00

Day21
My sibling having war at home. Cant use com to update. Boring life, i want to do something meaningful!
Day22
Have a talk with this fund manager. Saving plans. Should i should i not? deduct 100bucks every month! With a poor income i doubt i can tahan. ): Saw some cute bears and think of you again. I miss you.

2009-10-27T06:24:00.000-07:00

Day20
Hmmmm... Went sgh see specialist for my hand in the afternoon. It's still painful but cant compare than my heart ache. After which i Mj at night. Still can think of you while playing. I dont what the fuck am i doing!
EMO EMO GO AWAY PLEASE..... I BEG YOU!!!!! :'(

2009-10-25T06:44:00.000-07:00

Day18
Still emo-ing.
Day19
Went to weizhen hse warming. Like boring. Oops :X
Not recovering. I wondering , just a simple 3mths took me almost 3yrs to forget. So how long will i take this time ? Sometimes i just wanted to join you but im afraid. Afraid of you. Getting piss and angry of me. I dont want to be a annoying person. Sigh. What should i do meanwhile ?

2009-10-24T01:09:00.001-07:00

Day16
Went out with omk to buy ps3. He kenna cheated. LOL. Than mj whole night till 5plus than went home.
Day17
Went out to shop but ended nothing i want. After that went to some lj pub. Didnt enjoy much, learn how to play direction. Was fucking emo yesterday, i miss her again and again. And for the first time i wait for bus for 3hours plus near 4hours? LOL. I really hope to see you, i really hope we can get back tgt. Although we are tgt only for a few months but i dont know why i fall so deeply inside. Seeing you so happy im glad for you. But i couldnt take it anymore, i am not myself anymore. I really tried very hard to forget you but nothing can you off my mind. I dont like clubbing and keep going just to hope that i enjoy myself and forget you. But i find out i didnt even forget abit of you. And just wasting my time and life there. I hate myself for doing this kind of stupid thing. While thinking at the bus stop i got the urge to hit something again and again but luckily i didnt, i remember the promise i made. I wont break it. i love you, bi..

2009-10-21T19:58:00.000-07:00

Day15
Hmmm.. As usual, kenna "eat" by my fellow IC for two days. Fucking feel like slaping him. !@#$
I wonder is fate is playing me out. Im tired of this shit already, i want something that will be clear enough to show me my path. (:

2009-10-19T10:53:00.000-07:00

Day12
Went home ard 6am and wake up around 10am to swim. (: Shag but shiok ! lol.
Than we change and headed straight to town and do some shopping and brought a bum! :D
Got chance post some pic with that bum. Still missing you, my topic is still about you. Lastly,missing you. <3

Day13&14 ---> will be in camp doing duty! FUCK IT !!!!!!

2009-10-18T04:13:00.001-07:00

Day 11
Sometimes i wonder how ppl forget the one u treasure so quickly, like a blink of eyes. They claim that they treasure each other alot but can forget so quickly. It's so scary, wonder what they say is it true. Everyday pasts like no other business but i cant forget anything and letting things go in my mind.

2009-10-17T00:29:00.000-07:00

Day10
More and more disappointment. Everyday seems harder to past now.

2009-10-16T00:09:00.000-07:00

Day8
It's omk actual birthday! Wished him at around 1am plus. (:
Day9
Duty duty duty! Fuck it man. Damn fucking tiring. I want things back to normal !! sigh.

2009-10-13T23:46:00.000-07:00

Day 6 & 7
Went to shee sha with omk and nick they all. Had fun and went newton to have our supper. Purposely went out before camp to let me feel shag so wont think that much. Not bad effect! haha. Really shag ar. Plus two days straight duties can kill. Still will miss you, but still hoping you all the best! (:
Inside camp got some bastard kpkb about my injure hand and say me like i go geng one facture on my hand! CCB YOU ! Damn du lan but nothing can be done. Just hope he will get any injury or whatever illness. KNN!!!!

2009-10-11T00:11:00.000-07:00

Day5
Party ytd at soho. Yet again, i didnt enjoy it. LOL. Went there alone ,and ty davis for sending me there. Im like a lonely bastard now man! Friends like to complaint about not asking them out but instead is we ask them out and they always give 101 reasons to say dont want. I hate it. Maybe is because i feeling very down this few days but i feel they is not there when i need them. I know that they have things to do and broke so they didnt wanted to come. But gng thru guestlist and buying few dollars drink isnt the ex too. We can even cab home tgt. I dont see why they dont want to go. Unless you tell me that rotting at home is more fun to see hot girls dancing and knowing more friends. I really feeling very fucked up. Trying to go out have fun but is not helping !! FUCK YOU DANIEL !

2009-10-10T02:03:00.000-07:00

Day4
Ytd was quite a happening night, omk invited others people that we completely dunno and party with them. While im slacking talking inside the room with omk,nick and others. Listen to da alvin sister talk and gain quite a lot of life time experiences from her. I'm sad but what else can i do ? Move on is everyone telling me to do so. But is rather difficult. Nick, yuan lai wo men shi yi yang de! HI^5!!! LOL.. They party till like 5-6AM in the morning, while me and a few are playing MJ again ! :P
Anyway, sorry bro. Didnt enjoy your party as my mood is too down, yuan liang wo ok ? (:

2009-10-08T23:36:00.001-07:00

Day3
Had a mj session at mk chalet ytd and my mind wasnt there at all. Bro, im sorry. I cant really help it. The most i can do is not to drink so much and just trying to entertain myself. And today it should be our 2nd anni. Cool man! WHOOOOO!!!! Had a long talk with her but nothing can be done anymore. I really love you. Remember how last time we call each other darling in the texas ? hahaha... I miss it. I miss you! sigh. How i wish i got a brain damage now or whatsoever and forget everything. Saying yourself not ready to committe is not the way. Committement ? I dont need every 24/7 reporting to me, i know u are afraid have no time for me. I know u think alot. But what you think why cant you discuss with me ? We can make arrangement. Yes, i behave like a little boy. But i got my serious mood too. The reason everyone dont want talk to me about serious thing is because i always smile when i talk. Even when is in army, my sgt fuck me because of that.

2009-10-08T00:05:00.000-07:00

Day 2
I hate myself acting like a strong guy and telling others that i dont care which i care so much and bother so much. Why am i becoming this way? Love do change people, but who can i really talk to? Close friends feel that im stupid having this kind of feeling, but how much they really know how much i love her? Now what i can do is only tearing and hug eeyore to sleep. Whenever i close my eyes all the memories is haunting me. I'm too afraid to sleep, i dont want to act infront of others but do i have a choice? Is hard to act strong and tearing inside me. Tried 2days, and im very sick of doing it. You know how much i wanted to do silly things to myself and yet i am afraid that my family members is more hurt in the end. Sigh. Why cant i make a decision that cant hurt anyone but myself? Is painful. Really painful. Why do people hide their emotion? Why people dont give others a chance to learn from mistake? Why do people make one mistake and that mistake will be repeated taken out to let people comment on ? Why ? Why?! People tell me that "daniel, slowly you will learn." But what will i learn ? Is it how to lie to myself ? How to cheat myself and say to myself that i dont like this girl or what? I can cheat others but not myself, i know how i feel. Please if you know anything tell me about it.

2009-10-07T08:47:00.000-07:00

Day1
Cant sleep. I miss her , hugging a soft toy to sleep. Thinking of her whenever i close my eyes, but i cant do anything. I feel that im useless, in many ways. Does army change a guy or pain change a guy ? Army can only change a person for awhile and the person will become the same as the past. But pain it is hard to forget and is a scar for a person, it will always be there. What can i do to make myself happier but not acting? Hate it when i encounter problems i cant solve. Im in a lost. Some say happiness is to fight on our own. Yet another say giving up is also a kind of happiness. So which one should i fight for ? I dont want to be an idiot surfting net to solve my problem anymore. Can anyone teaches me what to do is the best? Dont ask me if she worth it. My answer to it is YES, SHE IS.

2009-10-06T22:52:00.000-07:00

Well, the last time i blog about my emo bgr! haha! Hmmm.. The one i love doesnt seems to love me or i shall say like me anymore. Im sad, but from this relationship i learn alot. Loving someone doesnt mean haven to keep her by ur side. Letting this go is her decision and i agree to it. I learn to love myself and not hurting myself and ended up my siblings and parents is more heartache than that the person i did it for.( IT IS REALLY PAINFUL AND NOT WORTH IT SO GUYS DONT DO THIS KIND OF CHILDISH ACT! That what i learn also. ) Maybe she right, she need time for her work and friends. Yes, i admit that i dont really know what u want and do the caring at the right time. I am those idiot who does too much of concern and it will become irritating. But all this doesnt mean that i give up, cause i believe in "there a will, there a way." And yes, thx you for the memories you give me. Movies , dinner , talking cock , ( bb ) , and accompang me back camp and fetching me when i book out. All of them are sweet! You are the best gf i ever had. Ty......... Oh ya, i wishes you all the best for your work and ur longing dreams of studying physcologic. Take care of your poor health and drink lots of water! (:

2009-09-29T03:15:00.000-07:00

I learn how to love myself and now learning how to love others at the same time. Hurting myself should be the stupidest thing i will do again, promise! (:
People, actually i just find out from a webby that im quite a annoying person! Sad to say that. Sigh.. I did a google search and find out. haha! And i believe google is my next best friend that i can find online. So people, if anything dont know google it ! Believe it can help up to some certain standard.
And lastly, let me have the chance to love you more and i promise i will study up on the website and get more knowledge about how not to make you piss or to say make anyone else piss. I will try to make u more certain about our relationship and please give me the chance to do so. i love you. :*

2009-09-25T23:37:00.000-07:00

Seems to lose myself some how or rather i cant pick myself up again. My smile is getting lesser , cant say lame jokes also. The daniel now isnt the daniel before. Heard alot of opinion and people telling me stuff. Some of those opinion is good in some ways but the opinion isnt what i wish to do. I cant settle alot stuff by myself now, i rely on people too much. I must learn how to work in a stressful world and survive in it. But not getting protected by people around me. Learning process is painful and it hurts me alot. Somehow if i dont go through it i wont grow up, and tends to wait for people to spoon feed me. I hate myself for being the weak daniel now. Things i need to do is "how to speak properly ,think before i speak." Do thing sometimes must walk through the long way, cant always try to get a short cut. Things might happen when we taking the short cut in life, so guys we cant be lazy! Last thing is that, we must learn to love ourself more than anything. Life is short , love it. (:

2009-09-25T04:10:00.000-07:00

I am a screw up. Causing lots of trouble of people and my family. I hate myself. Getting more extras and confinement is normal for me already i guess. Guess my sgt(s) and sir is aimming me and waiting for me to do wrong things now. OMFG ! HOW FUN IT WILL BE !!!!

2009-09-18T23:39:00.000-07:00

I just find out i'm a saddist actually! When im sad i like to see ppl even worse than me, or i will make them worse them me. Muahhahaha!!! WO SI BIAN TAI ! :D

2009-09-17T21:41:00.000-07:00

Im like fuck, army sucks! Freaking piss yet nothing can be done! Im not those who kenna screw and cant screw them back one. Waiting for the time to reach and things to come, handling ARMS everyday. Maybe one fine day i will take out and shoot all of them and kill myself! Muhahahahaha.... Hopefully everything will be fine, and i wont need to do that.. LOL.. IM FREAKING BORED!! i miss her.................................. ):

2009-09-14T21:35:00.000-07:00

Ohhh... First day off from camp, not happy at all. Im totally in a lost now. COMPLETELY should be the word i guess. Sigh, work one day, off one day plus stand by one day now. Sounds nice? But is totally FCUKED UP ! This will means i got lesser free time to meet my gf , and it became totally cock up my life. CCB!!! I got alot of things want to say, but the most impt one is to my gf. Bi, i really love you, trust you. I want you to shared things with me, be it the most unhappy and happy things with me. I dont ask for much, i just want to see you happy. I been praying hard for you in camp to let u hit your target and not getting screw by your boss. Our first month i miss it because of my LJ army. But i believe we still gt many more months to come and we still can be tgt and celebrate it. Finally, i really hope you got many great customers and have alot of deals.
i miss you bi.

2009-09-11T05:42:00.001-07:00

Will i be a hussle to you ? i really wonder. I'm kinda lost. ):

2009-08-29T07:41:00.000-07:00

What a sat man.. Planned to go out for a singing session but yang has no money so we cancel it, i dont blame on yang i understand how he feel and my tone of talking was really bad just now. im sorry. ): Than i ask my sister for a movie session and guess what? Cancel it and reason is next time watch. STEADY right ? Anyone can me with my sat ? Once a week to book out, yet quarrel with fren and gf. What a week to end man. It should be fun and waiting to go out with my gf and family. But all ended up like shit, piss with my own. Lousy bf, lousy brother and lousy fren to be. Reflecting at my own mistake and hoping it wont happen again.
fuck my life.......

2009-08-25T03:28:00.001-07:00

WHOOO!!! Back to post again ! (:
Was quite busy due to dating la... heee :P
Finally after like almost 2yrs plus and found one le! Her name call JEVONNE HUANG, she's very cute, hyper at times, can mood swing and is super scary!!! ): But in a bgr is just have to yi ren rang yi pu one what.... hahha... hopefully she nv read my post ! hee... Anyway omk ps ar.. i always say her cute infront of u till u bth mi. LOL.. And yes, guys sorry if i nv really contact you all,is not i wei ji meng kok is i dont have much time of both bgr and friends and wait for me to settle down abit first k! (:
And baby, not i always put other thing infront of you. Is really hard to balance off two side at once. Give me some time to learn it ok?
I YA YOU !!! MUACKS!

2009-08-04T23:53:00.000-07:00

Back to post again ! :D This few days been really tiring. Have been listening and giving advise to omk but yet i am super happy and really think it's relaxing thou.. haha.. OMK have been facing alot of problem this few days. Firstly, his monthly income not yet come. Secondly, Bgr. Thirdly, interviewing. Anyway, went to help him chose his shirt and pants for his interview and totally forget to see ter and jackson present. =.= Due to his gf F**KING high fever! Hope her can recover faster. Than send my "darling" home and at her hse downstair talk a little and my WITCH call me and hurry me back home and make me leave. SECOND TIME LOR! ANGRY >.<
'Darling' next time we talk on friday or sat my WITCH cfm wont call me go home one! hahaha.... okok ?? (:

2009-08-02T03:53:00.000-07:00

THIS POST IS FOR OMK , KENNY AND JIAHUI !

Firstly , mk. Maybe next time what you want to say or what we can just go tell kenny straight on his face why we dont like some of his behaving.
Kenny. Let's come out and talk it out and not making this stupid thing worse.
Jiahui. Keep yourselve cool and stay out of this matter this time ok ? Kenny will learn his lesson and we will bring what u say out. And sometimes we cant looks thing at one side. It's being selfish and not logical. No matter to relationship or friendship. Just do it a favour for us and dont make thing worse. ok?

Im sick of this kind of things already. And i will say out all what i want to say and wont be bias to anyone of you all. (:
Cause im a peacemaker! hahahahahha... But when a peacemaker angry equal all three of you jialat ! :D

2009-08-02T03:35:00.001-07:00

This stupid week gt some stomach problem and keep lao sai ! After that wed got a attend C in bunk. =.= Damn sad , cause attend c in bunk and is really really damn boring. So the whole day i was reading story book and looking at the sea. Calling omk and jevonne in the afternoon also. And have a long chat with jackson , jevonne and weizhen that night. Talk alot of cock and they sing song and almost take out mj and play already. haha! AND after that night, thurs, i got FEVER! 38.3. And got a 7 days mc from my camp. Like SHOIK only! hahaha... But doesnt feel good to be sick anyway. And friday i went to play bball with omk , jevonne , jackson , alvin. After the first round i vomit some gastric jucies, and follow by chest pain. Really feeling weak but must act strong abit. LOL. kenna alot eblow and jab on my thigh BUT this wasnt the main point! Main point is we LOSE ALL THE GAME!! -.- I wont find any reason for my lousy skills but i have to brush up my skills and go take my revenge back! hahah! After bball went mj session till morning and settle some BGR problem till afternoon and order some pizza! super nice! And i continue playing mj again without slping till night. And the total hrs i nv sleep was 40hrs+ and im nt really very very tired and wanted to go play lan with alvin but was told not to go and go sleep. And i want be a good boy so went to my bed and sleep. haha..

2009-07-22T01:55:00.000-07:00

This few days keep having same weird dreams. First i dreamt that i become a transexual and is my sister ask me to become a girl and i agree with it. haha ! Than yesterday i dreamt that my friend, jojin he also suddenly become a transexual and he only cut his bird bird and have no breast ! LOL.... I think i too shag already sia.. Keep dreaming this kind of weird dream.

2009-07-18T23:23:00.000-07:00

Back to post again. Sometimes really hate weekend cause i always have no plans and going out with my close friends is hard also. Because our doing style is always LAST MIN so it will be like whole or morning and afternoon doing nth and go out at night then watch a movie and headed home straight. Sigh..
Anyway , today is jiahui birthday. Happy birthday to you and hope you and mk last long long long...... And please dont act cute infront of me ! IS VERY GROSS AND I CANT UNDERSTAND IT CAUSE I HAVE NO GF ! Lastly hope mk and teach you how to use more of your brain and wont let me always disturb you and you dont even know about it ! LOL.
Friday went to your bbq and go home and help my sister do something so early and than never join back you guys. Sorry , my bad. Cause is rather late and have no money for extra stuff already and jackson 21st birthday coming. HIGHNESS !! SIBEI BROKE AR!! hahah....

Sat went to town awhile with teh , zhen and jack to search for teh father , sister and brother present. LAST MIN search for it also. Lol. Ended up teh only brought a pair of sunglasses for her sister. And we at taka food fare eat our dinner like ke lian only. hahaha... After went home and mj with my sister and friends ! SHOIK !!:D

Feeling fucking lonely! and bored. sigh.. why why why ???????

2009-07-12T01:20:00.000-07:00

Whoooo.... Going to book in soon. Around 4more hours time. Shagness !!!! Back to my stay in life and super stressful, not able to sleep well the last whole week. Super worry that get confinement and is like super easy to get confine there. And soon jackson birthday coming and i dont even know am i able to go or not ! SIGH.... Jackson, if i cant attend to your 21st birthday is not my fault. Might be that sgt pick on me, cause that time also fight with him liao. -.- SHAG AR!!!
HATE MY FUCKING LIFE !!!!

2009-06-27T04:23:00.000-07:00

Lol. My blog got hack in by KENNY !!! haha... Because of TAN WEI ZHEN nv log out! -.-
DIAO NI !!!
Ok. I got kick out of my course as a diver now going for another course. Song! Because is 0800-1700 and can book out everyday. Although is just a two week course but still happy. Because happiness is always short! LOL.. This week nothing much to blog also.. Sibei sian ! I miss my training in ndu, those hardcore workout than at night just sleep nia.. Wont think of anything and just thinking of booking out on friday and wher to party ! Haha.. But since i know i gt OOC , slack like shit and all my past training the effect gone within a week ! sigh.. And i think i look super ah gua now lor! No muscle , no tanning and must train back on my own is very difficult !! -.-
HOW HOW HOW ?!?!?!!??!

2009-06-24T06:09:00.000-07:00

LOL~
kenny here...

wanted to blog in mine blog den daniel nv logout de other day when he was using...
so come in disturb b4 i logout...
wahahaha...

no worries...
i dun have ur pw...
=D

2009-06-13T22:15:00.001-07:00

Yesterday went out with kenny and omk to fareast. As usual , im the earliest. Meet 5 in the end all say will be late and than all reach around 6. -.- Walk around with kenny to find him a new pair of shoe. Walk the whole of fareast and had chicken rice for dinner or lunch ? I dont know la ! haha.. Anyway , after that went to wheelock place and see shoe for kenny again. Saw a very new pair of shoe but that ti ki kenny die die also dont want buy it. So we went to heren and ceni to see. And finally after so many places he buy the shoe liao. Maybe is the sales girl pretty la but that sales girl seriously look hot! (: At ceni kenny go disturb his friend by touching her shoulder than zhao and follow by my hi. And his friend still can hi back which she dont even know me la!!! immediately laugh like fuck liao.. haha!! kenny ur friend damn cute sia !!
I brought a plain tee with button and that crazy kenny go and buy a blazer. ( spore not hot enough ) LOL. Soon we took train down to power house and go YO AR YO ! haha.. But too bad yesterday is a day without any pics! )):

2009-06-13T22:11:00.000-07:00

HOR YI SI AR !!! DAO POK !

This what i kapo from TanWeiZhen blog only. Hmmm.. Must ask my Mr.Dang to send me so can post more pictures on my sentosa trip.LOL

2009-06-06T11:41:00.000-07:00

Went sentosa today, was fine than went into the water and my inner thigh sudden cramp!! >.<
PAIN AR! So decided to rest first. After that play volleyball for awhile and jackson ur team LOSE but NEVER DO push up !!! LOSER!!! LOL.. After that my fever kick in again so just rest till they all want to leave the place which is ard 6plus ? After that went to eat some hokkien mee , TASTE SUCKY!!! YUCKS!
After sentosa wanted to watch some movie but no good timing or no seating already ):
Headed down to katong there to sing K but my dear friend yang suddenly say he very shag, so i requested to go and eat !
PIC COMING SOON !! AFTER ZHEN POST I GO KAPO SOME PUT INSIDE HERE.. heehee..
Mimi lai de dont tell ppl ar! LOL.. OK LA BYE!

Oh ya, omk i dont what happen to you today. But please , you are a grown up adult already.
Show some responsibilty can ? You know because of you , your poor gf kenna scold by me very badly ? And u claim that everyone is angry towards you. So you think is our fault to be angry or u are in fault ? Remember u always saying people childish and all that ? Its always apply two ways, doesnt mean you talk like a adult or act like a kiddy person means you are not mature enough. Mature means that you can think for yourself and act properly and have responsibilty towards everything. Even ur friend. I might be your very good friend but you cant take kindness as weakness right ? sometimes seriously i think you must do some reflection towards yourself and i know you sure will come out with alot of own theory. But must act like what u think, if not effort is gone. Right ?
Anyway, really take good care of yourself. Playing MIA is not our style, remember.
Anything i will still be here, got problem come share with me might help you also.

2009-06-06T11:32:00.000-07:00

My jiao bin is ownage man !!! :D

2009-05-31T01:04:00.000-07:00

OH YA, after that still went slacking. At east coast park , took quite a number of pictures but i dont have it. So cant post it out. Haha.. Quite enjoyable that night, and i first time order a 6piece nuggets and came out to be 7 pieces. LOL.

SAT
Went to the sales again, brought a polo-t and a long sleves tshirt. At night didnt did much things also, went to iluma and saw alot of pretty girls. Hahaha.. That shopping centre is nice and beatiful but nothing much inside too.

SUN
Going to book in after my super long weekend! Feeling very sian and like dying, but no choice im a NS men now. ):
So guys, see ya next weekend!!!! Miss me ar!! LOL.
OK LA BYE~

2009-05-31T00:48:00.000-07:00

OOPPSSS.. Ok, tues not nothing much i got play mj !
FRIDAY
We went for the club21 sales and the stuff there is really dirt cheap! Haha..
But didnt manage to get alot of stuff, and decide SAT go again. LOL.
And at night went to the FHM event and suprising only da alvin sister win a first runner up and JOJO LAI and her FREN didnt win!! The winner looks like a china bitch to me lor!! OMG!!
After the event went off and never continue and club. Soon i hear a very fuck up comment from a fren, saying "Aye, u all want go or not ? And go can stay late or not? You all can give some place to slack ma? Dont always we think leh. If u all dont want go than we go and fetch you all is WASTING our PETROL leh.." After i hear this my blood boil like fuck and really feel like smacking that fucker to death! Ok. i know i dont have a transport but i think that went u need someone to send u home or find u did we say WASTE PETROL ? When u are bored and we slack till late and u dont have money to take midnight cab did we say WASTE PETROL or did we say bu shun lu and dont send u home ? Come on lah, think before u speak. At that moment i fucking take up my hp and wanted to call u and fuck u upside down. Luckily jackson stop me, if not i dont know what will happen after i see you. Seriously speaking when i saw u i really fucking feel like landing my punches on ur fucking face and let u cui. And reach ter hse, yang come and tell me to chill and say dont be impulsive because we are still friends and dont want separate like this.

To you, you might think im talking cock and wont fucking hit u or not even scare if im really hot.
You can seriously try me, i wont fucking give a damn to what others say. Just try it again, i dont think i can let of my anger this easily already.

2009-05-27T21:09:00.000-07:00

MONDAY
Waited for my campmates come my hse for MJ session and went to bbq.
Bbq is the most happening part for the day!! haha. The bbq is to celebrate for our P.O.C
but ended we are fighting among our own and my instuctors was sitting dwn and watching show!! Damn funny. I hit until my knucles and eblow brusies. haha! super long never get so angry but that bastard hit me first so cant blame on me. (:
TUESDAY
Nothing happen much, went for a movie and headed home.
WED
As usual, meet omk to go out. And yes, he is late again. OMK next time want to tell lies to me be smarter dont let me find out can ? Sigh... Another 1 hour for my life is wasted because of waiting.
And yes, next time if i just went off like that dont blame on me. Even u are in taxi or reaching soon. I WONT CARE! So i tell u the last time DONT BE LATE !

2009-05-17T01:28:00.000-07:00

Hmmmmm.. This whole week i think thw most happening i go thru is my field camp.
Very fuck up, dirty, hungry. Very fuck up is because keep kenna F for nothing and is not our fault. Dirty nothing to say much also cant bath and rolling on the mud but rolling in the mud is nothing compare to cannot bath !!! Hungry because combat ration is totally not for human !!! VERY REPECT COMMANDOS!!! But luckily im in navy so my field camp is only 3days 2nights.
Hate the lepoard crawl cause lots of injury and we fucking crawl for 200m. WTF !!! My sir bu shi ren ar....!!!
Oh ya! Yesterday went to seesha, not as bad as i went the first time. Cause first time i went seesha i vomit -.-
We play some true and true game and took few pics but too bad my hp is LKK (lao kok kok) hp
so have to wait for jackson to upload for me and i will post it up! :D
Anyone wants to go seesha with me next week or movies?!?! CALL ME !!!!!!

2009-05-11T02:12:00.001-07:00

For a reason i still miss you deep within me.
The moment we share our problems, our conversation throughout the night.
We even played mj till the day i enlisted to army, that was the first time u told me
im cute and i wont forget about it. And my first booked out when to PS and meet u just for a lunch but im happy enough. My sec booked out we was planning to watch movie but in the end change to play mj with ur frens, meanwhile in the cab we are playing 5 10 and winner will hit loser ears. And that night was the night u hugged me and then i sent u back to my hm and rest because you working at tamp mall next morning. You hold my hand before i leave my hse for breakfast and the way u look at me. That was the day i thought we both are meant for each others but then i dont know why u make the choice of asking me to leave and heard that u go back to ur EX. All this thoughts have been in my mind and is really difficult to forget u just like this. Many ppl told me what a person u are and they tell me u are a bad person doesnt worth me to behave like this. But i dont care at all! Can you give me a reason why u dont want to be with me ? At least tell me something like "daniel, u suck u are damn poor and not as handsome any as my EX." At least im more happy. Tears been rolling down my heart for very long. Saw many of my close friend all attached. Always meet them and they bring their gf out tgt is so sweet and loving. But im so envy and jealous inside me but i always put on a strong front.
For OMK why we go out and i keep saying girls and always sounds horny or despo is just that i want a person that can really understand me. Friends told me i shouldnt get into bgr while serving NS , i know what u guys trying say to me and tell me to forget her. But im still thinking of her behaviour and action she did and lastly her beautiful eyes.

2009-05-08T22:25:00.000-07:00

This week sucks! First got my phone confiscate because one of my batch boy using a phone and call hospital or smth. But he shouldnt even use the phone and call in fornt of them!! WTH... That why i always say JC ppl are smart but they are not street smart!! Then ended up all the phone get confiscate due to him! THX AR! But got back 2 days after. (: We got back our phone is because my PC give us nights out! Whooooooooo... TOTAL SONGNESS!! haha.. when to eat aston! Their food simply NICE but also quite cheap! SHIOK SHIOK ! And ytd went out wif omk again. Planing is to watch movie at first dan maybe club after that. But than the fucker is late AGAIN, and for a reason i really very very very pissed off! This time i really give him big time, really find it that set meeting time is useless. Not even once early one, or even early then me by abit or i late like 15mins he fuck me like shit. Ytd he actually let mi wait for like 1.30hrs? meet 1930 reach at 2130. Damn zai right! sigh.. After tat went to phuture straight, damn boring cause when i reach the dance floor is super empty! Can even lie down and sleep and sure no1 will step on u one. The crowd reach like only at 12am plus! So ppl, go phuture dont need so early go liao. Is not like the past so crowed!! Sorry no pics to upload too. haha!

2009-05-01T22:16:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow booking in already! Damn sian. Yesterday went to woodland to play bball with camp mates and OMK came and join me. After tat went his hse to change up and go for a swim -.- (kenna force one) LOL. Nvm. But after is super tiring and go 85 market to eat. For no reason and i not very hungry but i eat alot alot! hahaha.. After tat plan to watch X-men with yang they all but when i reach home jackson told me we are nt watching anymore. Then super sad so i went to bed and sleep str after that. lol. Took a pic at OMK hse is super lame! My face super jiao. haha!!! Must ask OMK gf to send me that pic and i try upload.

2009-05-01T21:59:00.000-07:00

Another emo day again ! sigh. Thinking of her again suddenly dont why.
After i serve NS i have been asking myself " what FRIENDS means ."
Friends to me they mean alot to me. But what do they think/feel about it ? And i find something
started to change when i enlisted to army. Is kinda sad when ever i switch on my phone there will be always no sms or a missed calls from them. Felt so jealous to see
my camp mates when ever they switch on their phone full with lots of sms and planning their weekends tgt with
their friends or gf. Unlike me thou my friends know im coming out on sat but no one will ask
me out to chill or what. Or even got DUA by some friends and make my weekend become boring! This feeling really suck!
But i know few of my brothers still because i book out and come and slack with me tgt at hse downstair. Althought is very far from town area which i really wanted to go but i still wanted to say thx bro, for accompany me and slacking tgt.

2009-04-11T21:44:00.000-07:00

Yesterday is the first time chill out with Da alvin after so long.
Haha. He let me drink like mad and finally after not long,
IM DEAD! lol. Fucking hangover while posting now.
To Alvin I WILL BE BACK u wait!!
Chilling at a pub in bugis, the enviroment is really nice and good.
But quite bored is that NO GIRLS! haha.
Ps ar, NS guys is like that one. hee.
Same also, have no pictures to share with u all.
My computer is getting worse! Super lag and dont know did my sister
upload the pictures already.

2009-04-11T21:27:00.000-07:00

Feeling damn fuck up after dinner,but i dont know why.
Might be because i deleted all her msg and thinking of her?
But deleting her msg is so that,i can move on faster and not stuck there
like most of the ppl.
Or another reason is because im afraid one of my good buddy wei ji meng kok?
Thou he always do tat! haha.
Suddenly feels like every one is having their own life and is really difficult
to ask friends out and chill together like last time.
Finally can understand why NS men will like to party till late night and
go back camp and sleep.
To those guys tat haven enlist dun ever say to ur NS buddy example like,
why always book out go club sian leh. Or why book out so short u also want to go
home than book in again.
Cause what goes around comes around. Will be ur turn soon !
Anyway, i have been stuck and home for the last 3 weeks.
SUPER BORED.

2009-04-05T02:24:00.000-07:00

Sorry guys. Nv post anything after my dad bdae.
Nth much happen actually also.
I was sick for the whole fucking week
and the worse thing is to stay insid camp when sick !
But luckily im sick and i dont have to get HAMMER (punish) with my campmate
i realli pity them sia!!! LOL
Thou they get to book out on fri but those hammering session is damn much!!
hahahahhaha...

2009-03-22T04:06:00.000-07:00

SIBEI KIN AR!!! Have to book in today again !!!
I miss my outside life!! Can slack ard wif my friends.
):

2009-03-21T08:45:00.000-07:00

Hmmmmm.. Today feeling better i guess. haha.
Brought a new hoodie from OMK friend. NICE!!! :D
Celebrated my daddy birthday and pics will be upload soon!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA !! LOVE YOU ! MUACKS!!!

2009-03-20T13:00:00.000-07:00

Got to book out todae maybe due to good performance? :D
Wanted to find ka ki to play my MJ with me but no ones want
to play with me ):
Super bored ar..!!!
Got no one to meet up,
or the one i really wants to see is not appearing.
Sometimes wonder why i book out ?
Instead of staying inside camp which can let me save up and gt free food somemore!
LOL.
A question that have been running thru my mind recently,
and up till now still have no answer to it. haha..!
I try to post some pics next time!! i think my blog is super DRY !!!

2009-03-20T07:09:00.000-07:00

Another fuck up and shag day inside camp.
Yes.Still thinking of her and miss her too.
Sigh.
I think we are going not to contact each other soon?
Felt so stupid and dumb for myself.
Each and every night im trying not to think so much,
but every night is so terrible for me.
So i try to call everyone and talk cock with me till im sleepy. :P
Sorry guys, i know u all will feel like fuck up.
But pls stand on my side and think for mi.
And i think that the song "yong qi" suit my feelings right now.
Last but not least to say thx you for my camp mates and of cause friends like
Ah hua, OMK( bro for another mother ) and xiuling! :D
LOVE YOU ALL !!!

2009-03-15T00:10:00.000-07:00

I will remain everything as what we are.

I wont force you to give up on ur friendship and be with me,

and not forcing u doesnt mean that i give up.

But i believe this is the reason and not because of any other reasons.

Slowly i'm getting used to not texting u and even call u every night.

It's not because i doesnt miss u or what.

Is just that i dont want you to think that i'm annoying.

I hope everything will be fine! Sorry to all my friends cause i have been giving emo looks.
And i know emo looks doesnt suit mi!! I will be back to normal when my next book out alright!!
ANYWAY thx to jessica i have this blog and omk for accompany mi tis fews days while im out!